Wake up Mo

Remember me?

It has been 18 months since I have posted here. Let’s catch up.

  • You last saw me in Ireland running across the country from Dublin to Kinvara. That was Epic.
  • Then I helped my friend run from San Fransisco to Los Angeles for fun and we raised $10000 for Do Away with SMA.
  • I race the Wine and Dine that year and then in 2016 I went to the Star Wars Rebel something something in Disneyland. That is when the wheels fell off.

I have a little condition called an Acoustic Neuroma. Long story short, it is a brain tumour that took up residence on my vestibulocochlear nerve. Mine is close to the brain stem but not pushing into it. If that happens then it’s surgery to remove. But so far, it’s behaving itself. I have single sided deafness, balance/dizzy issues, pressure headaches but all things considering, I’m doing pretty good! I walk slow now because I have to be super mindful of falling. More women die from falling complications than heart disease according to my doc- I fall a lot and it’s not glamorous so I have slowed down. Fatigue is a big issue that’s not mentioned here but my doc says it’s one very common symptom. Naps are my super power. If you need medical information about it, the Mayo Clinic explains it quite nicely here 

I tried running as this progressed but certain symptoms were more than I could handle. I took all of 2016 off and worked on figuring out what my new normal was going be. Let me tell you, it broke my heart because my physical progress from Fat to Less Fat was pretty damn important to me. I had an aunt say to me, ‘you better watch it – you’ll be fat again in no time.” I know people mean well but sometimes I think ‘Do they really?’ I haven’t really spoken with her now since….2015? I think? I cut out negative and mean people from my life. I made the choice to simplify everything. I found a pretty good balance but felt myself getting squishy… I still wear the same size but when you don’t use your muscles like you used to your shape changes.

I am not likening that much.

I gave up pop and artificial sugars. I gave up sugars for the most part, Christmas 2016 I went over board but, I can curtail that again easily. My eating habits are still pretty great but my exercise is not. Going for a walk once a week with my dog is good, but I need more.

So I signed up for a Race.

2017 is Canada’s 150th birthday, My 50th birthday and Edmonton Marathon’s 25th birthday.

While my dream of NYC Marathon is now a faded memory, I can still walk. Sure I have to walk slow and less far but I am still upright and not dead yet so all is well. I signed up for the Canada Day Road Race 2.5km.

IT’s shocking to me that I am okay with 2.5k and not the 15 km or relay of even 5km. It has taken me a year to get over the fact that I do not run anymore.

People say, well you will bounce back. That isn’t helpful. 1 year of getting used to the fact that everything in my life is different is not the same as bouncing back, because I had to find a new normal. I also do not want to undo all the hard work I have put into myself. I am worth the effort so here I am back with Mo trying to figure out what fitness level I am and how I am going to move and advance through new levels. So I made a few goals.

  1. Increase flexibility to be able to touch toes (again).
    1. I will engage with yoga stretches every morning for 5 mornings a week.
    2. Primarily focusing on my hamstrings.
  2. Increase endurance by walking consistently.
    1. Walk for 30 minutes every day after work with my dog.
    2. 1 Long walk on the weekend for a minimum of 1 hour.
    3. focus on time not distance yet.
  3. Strengthen core to improve posture.
    1. planks every morning starting with as long as I can go, I suspect it will be 30 seconds but we will soon see. Record how long and increase over one month.

3 small goals is good for January. I will update my progress and reassess the goal in February. My long term goal is Canada Day 150 2.5km race.

I plan to be in the creek a lot this month because its my happy place and I really need it.

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Health can sure change your life in a moments notice.

 

 

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7 thoughts on “Wake up Mo

  1. Welcome back Mo! I too haven’t updated my blog in about a year. Sorry to hear about your diagnosis, but – from following you along before I could tell that this isn’t a permanent “setback” for you. You are motivated, driven and strong. You’ll find your new normal soon and be “back”… hmmmmmm…. are you really “back” if it’s a NEW normal? Or is it just — you’ll be kicking butt as well or better than before!

    • After writing this I was surprised by the outpouring of support. Overwhelmed actually. It’s been most from friends old and new. But then I get this from you and it’s like running into an old pal at the grocery store! You’re right, I’m kicking ass and taking names…just a little slower. I’ll make it to the bounce back part for sure. Thanks for stopping by and saying hi! It was good to see you 🙂

  2. Hi! I have an acoustic neuroma too.. 3.2 cm and compressing into brainstem.. I actually have my surgery in Feb! therefore, your post actually hit close to home in many ways. First off, in the way that you mentioned you are cutting negativity out.. isn’t it amazing how we found out who is truly there for us in a time like this? Also, new normal is challenging because I am only 30 and planning my life around this major surgery instead of getting pregnant or married. I’ve been very depressed. But started a blog as well! maybe you can relate to some of my posts.. you probably will. Are you on W and W or did you have radiation? All the best to you!! sounds like you have a positive attitude, and that goes a very long way!

    • Hi Meagan! I am on W&W. This time around I received encouraging news. No real changes. The swelling has gone down – likely due to me embracing the new normal. I am sorry you need surgery, that is a pretty big fear of mine. Happily Brain Surgeons are good at what they do. I wish you well and am stopping by to support another AN Warrior! Go US!

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